Aloha!

السلام عليكم

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So not a way to greet people =.='

This gonna be so random. Am going to just flush anything that is in my mind.

Now, it is 3.30 in the morning. Will not having class for the day as it is a public holiday; Labour Day.

Lots of thing had been happening for the past 2 months. Almost two months kot aku tak update blog!!! But seriously, thing had been sooooooooooooooooooo hectic. This final sem in CFS is the MOST hectiec sem. No more lepak2 tengok movie every malam Khamis. You don't have time for that. Even the weekends at home were filled with something else. There was this one weekend that I even didn't have the chance to upload our pictures in Taiping.

Oh yeaahh, that some time my room mates and I went to Taiping, the home town of Atikah. It was my first time on an express bus. Such spacious seats!!! Sorry la kalau aku terlebih thrill ke apa. First time kot. Harap maklum. 

We had receive such a warm hospitality by Atikah's family. I really do miss the calmness in Taiping, especially the cool water. Burrrr *shivers*

So, I had just underwent my Medic interview. Was quite cuak  when I knew that I'm gonna be the first person to enter the interviewing room *gulp* Yalah, you don't know what to expect. During the Medic briefing a few weeks before, we had been told that the panels will be provoking you. There will always be someone who will go out to the room crying. Sounds scary aite?

Typical question will always be 'do you really want to be a doctor?', 'did your parents asked you to be a doctor?', 'why do you want to be a doctor?', 'what do you want to specialized in?' and etc. I was having some difficulties on deciding specializing in what field. However, I do know that I want to be a specialist somehow, and even to further in PhD. Eh, nothing is impossible laa. Everything is possible when Allah wills it and when you really strive for it.

I might say that I am a dreamer. I always dream BIG. Sometimes it's like a big balloon filled with helium that made you drift away from the hard ground reality. Planned to have my own hospital. But Mama advised, "Get you degree first". Exactly! Kalau degree 5 tahun pun tak lepas, kirim salam je la kat hospital kau tu Hanie =.='

Tried seeking for my Biology lecturer's advice. What I could really remember was about "You actually don't know, what you already know". Hmm, sounds complicated? Huhuuuuhu. Or maybe I am just to afraid to say that I want it. Ahh, I also dunno what I want. Or maybe I do. #confused

She tried suggesting a few field that I might be interested on. Neurology? Not so into brain laa. Oncology? Oncologist works in the lab. I'm more to a people person who prefer to meet new people rather that spending hours in the lab. O&G? Yes, I agree that we need more Muslimah gynecologist. However I don't think it is for me. Pediatric? I love kids, but I'm not sure if kids love me. Lol. I might be a little bit garang for them. You really need this special skill to pacify the children. I come from a small family, just 3 siblings. Not so much experience with small children. 

"How about cardiology? Madam rasa Hanie sesuai jadi cardiologist. You ada that ketegasan. And madam nampak la passion awak bila belajar pasal heart dulu". True. Heart is one of my favourite organs of the human anatomy. "Tapi saya takut kalau buat surgery tu. Salah sikit dah boleh membahayakan nyawa patient" "Thats the challenges you have to face". True again. "Actually dulu saya memang pernah berangan pun nak kerja kat IJN". That's how you know what you already knew. Somehow still afraid to say it out loud. Hanie Farhana, the future cardiologist?

If the panel asked what field of medicine you want to further, I can always said that I haven't decide yet. Though somehow just giving them the answer they want to hear is than to give them the impression that I'm not that interested in becoming a doctor. Dengan baru nak decide nak specialized apa, dengan kelam kabut nak pergi family day karate, dengan sibuk nak quiznyaa, memang tak sempat nak buat reseach. Oleh itu, aku pun sangatlah terharu bila Mama did the research for me about cardiology and compile it in a file; Hanie Cardiologist :') Best Mom anyone can ever wish for :')

During the weekend, the was held a Karate Family Day in Kuantan. We went there on Friday evening until Sunday. The interview was on the next day, Monday. Banyak betul dugaan sebab sepatutnya kami bertolak kembali ke Kuantan pukul 4 petang. Tapi bas sesat, lepas tu bas rosak dalam perjalanan nak ambil kami. End up the bus pick up up around 7 pm. Reached PJ approximately 12.15 am. The interview was at 8.30 am. 

Atikah was kind enough to offer to iron my baju for interview. Terharu di situ. Hafizah masih setia dengan menyorokkan sudu charm dalam pencil box aku. Minah ni memang full of surprises.

Di pagi yang hening, cahaya si mentari kian menerangi bumi CFS. Penantian dan debaran semakin terasa tatkala jarum jam dengan patuhnya terus berdetik. Panel berdua sudah bersedia. Pintu diketuk, meminta izin. Salam diberi, kenalkan diri.

Personally, I feel that my interview went really well. I was unconsciously smiling widely when I was exiting the 'judging' room.  

Thats's all for now.

Wassalam :)