السلام عليكم
I must say,
It’s been a while. Now, for a little update.
I’ve now completed my 2nd year of
study; 3 more years to go.
Referring to my previous post, I was still in
my 4th block of Year 2, the toughest block of all! Knowing my own minuscule
effort, I didn’t think I can pass that block. It was too hard for me. I want to
blame it to the curricular but I know I was the one who lack of focus in class.
Sometimes when the lecture gets too blurry (and difficult you just wanna sit in the corner and weep), you just gave up on listening.
I should work harder, I admit. If I didn’t understand
something, I should ask my friends who are more knowledgeable, better the
lecturers themselves. There are also tons of helpful YouTube videos available that I could watch.
A key to success in med school is by REPEATING.
Well, that’s what I’m lacking off. Me trying to complete a topic ONCE is a success by
its own definition.
Due to lack of preparation, I was not ready to
sit for exams. I was so nervous. I tried my best though. I fought hard. It
feels I like a fought a lion with my bare hand. It wasn’t easy. The success
rate was depressing.
For my first paper, I was the earliest to leave
the exam hall. I cannot face the paper anymore. I just can’t do it no more.
Outside, my shaking hands were ice cold and I was tachycardic.
In the ends, I called my mom and ask, “Ma, kalau Hanie fail block ni boleh tak?”.
First time ever, I asked my Mom if I can fail an exam. When I judge my own performance, I know
was failing it.
In Allah’s will, Alhamdulillah I pass block 4!
It was very surprising!
du’a during Ramadan is very mustajab.
Thank you all for the du'a.
Thank you Allah for this blessing :’)
