Unscatched.

  السلام عليكم

It’s been a while. Now, for a little update.

I’ve now completed my 2^nd year of study; 3 more years to go.

Referring to my previous post, I was still in my 4^th block of Year 2, the toughest block of all! Knowing my own minuscule effort, I didn’t think I can pass that block. It was too hard for me. I want to blame it to the curricular but I know I was the one who lack of focus in class. Sometimes when the lecture gets too blurry (and difficult you just wanna sit in the corner and weep), you just gave up on listening. 

I should work harder, I admit. If I didn’t understand something, I should ask my friends who are more knowledgeable, better the lecturers themselves. There are also tons of helpful YouTube videos available that I could watch. 

A key to success in med school is by REPEATING. Well, that’s what I’m lacking off. Me trying to complete a topic ONCE is a success by its own definition. 

Due to lack of preparation, I was not ready to sit for exams. I was so nervous. I tried my best though. I fought hard. It feels I like a fought a lion with my bare hand. It wasn’t easy. The success rate was depressing.

For my first paper, I was the earliest to leave the exam hall. I cannot face the paper anymore. I just can’t do it no more. Outside, my shaking hands were ice cold and I was tachycardic.

In the ends, I called my mom and ask, “Ma, kalau Hanie fail block ni boleh tak?”. First time ever, I asked my Mom if I can fail an exam. When I judge my own performance, I know was failing it.

In Allah’s will, Alhamdulillah I pass block 4! It was very surprising! 

I must say, 

du’a during Ramadan is very mustajab. 

Thank you all for the du'a.

Thank you Allah for this blessing :’)