Suffer.

السلام عليكم

May peace and good health be upon you :)

Weather had been alternating between scorching hot sun and heavy rain all day long. Because of this, many had been infected by flu or cough or both. Not to be left out is the household here. I think most of the clinic are usually jam-packed with ill patients right?

Well, there's something I wanna tell you. It is related to the title of the entry; SUFFER. Such a big word huh? What's the first thing that jump out of your mind when I mentioned SUFFER? For me, I would say the people in Gaza. There's no exact word  to describe the agony they're dealing with. Something that is beyond our imagination, beyond what was displayed on TV or reported in the newspapers. Let's pray that Allah will help them and give them ease and strenght to heal :)

That is a lot more tormenting than what I am going through. So, be strong Hanie! And be very grateful :)

The thing is, I was having this backache for quite some time. Almost two weeks, approximately. I can't sit down on a chair for a long time, or else I'll end up having this serious ache and it hurt so much just to stand up back. It also hurts a lot when I went watching Skyfall with Aina and Istanbul Aku Datang with Nabilah, Sarah and Nadia. You don't stand when watching movies right? You sat on the chair for a couple of hours.

At first I thought it was a minor strain on the back. But it got worse :( Every night I'll put some ointment on the painful area, but it doesn't make any difference :( 

I remembered that I had a small fall when I was playing with lil' bro, Alif. It was really a silent thud, and it doesn't hurt at all, at first.

So, went to the clinic to consult the doctor. The doc gave me some painkillers and tablets to relax the muscle. But I had a feeling it was something else because it is not some ordinary muscle strain. So, I go for the traditional way; 'urut'.

I had went 'urut' before. However I didn't remember it was this painful. The past 'urut' session is more of relaxing the muscle, improving blood circulation and 'buang angin'.

But this time it was about correcting the nerves or 'urat'. The thing is my back got 'salah urat' and the 'urat dah bengkak'. No wonder it hurts so bad. It also affected my legs a bit where I can't walk as much as I used to walk when going shopping.huhuhhuu

When I was being 'urut' it hurts SOOOOO FREAKINGGG BADDD! Felt like crying wehhh! Tears were definitely welling up. It felt like there's a sharp knife piercing through your flesh. No kidding! True story! The 'tukang urut' found the troublesome nerves and she pressed so hard to fix the problem. Reminiscing the moment hurts as bad as it was >.<'

At least suffer now to heal later right? But then the aftermath of the 'urut' hurts too. Heyy, I'm not being a cry baby here. Just it does hurt (T-T) I can't lie down on my back because it hurts. Even if I did, I need my sister to pull me back up. Can't do it by myself :( 

I took the 500g Ponstan (painkiller) prescribed by the doctor. It only scaled down the pain by minuscule and it certainly didn't kill the pain.

I take this positively. The pain is a way to delete my previous sins, if Allah's will :)

Please pray

 that the pain will suppress fast.

  I will not be taking anymore medication.

 Will try to fight back the pain.

 Heal fast please,

 pleaseee. 

Wassalam :)