Smalam went to a local supermarket to buy some groceries. Pastu mama ckp nk sushi? NAKKK. Telah terpilih la sushi2 yg telah menambat hati saya. Bile nk amek price tag (yg ditampal kat kotak sushi) org yg jage th tgh bz preparing other sushi. Ak pown panggil la mak cik th, tp dye tak dgr coz suare ak nh ‘lembut’ sgt.hahhaha
Tetibe, ade dis one lady, wif blue FRANCE polo shirt pown nk beli sushi gak. Dye telah nmpak kepayahanku utk memanggil mak cik itu. Dgn lantang nye dye memanggil mak cik itu dan sushi ak dah ade price tag.
Yea, walau pun kisah ini macam ntah pape, tp ak berase sgt terharu bcoz a stranger had been very kind to me though dye hanye tolong panggil kan mak cik sushi. Dan ak juge prasan yg stranger itu ade speech probs, sort of bisu tp bleh kluar kn suara. Betapa bersyukur nye ak boleh berkata-kata dgn lancar nye sampai siap boleh bertikam lidah dengan org laen. Tp dye yg masih terketar-ketar percakapannye, maseh mahu membantu ak.
This made me to want be kind to others, including to a stranger. Why not kn?
“Cuz! Check ur email. Tun Razak interview dis sat!”
Dis sat? same ngan bbq. Gi interview la for experience, bbq bile2 gi.
“Mama, I got the interview for the Tun Razak Leadership Programme. It’s a 2 weeks programme; from 20th Feb till 6th March held in KL and ade camping n homestay and etc.”
“2 weeks? Lamenye. R u sure u want to join? U r going to miss atok’s bday n even ur own bday.”
Pops in my mind: Waa, after 5 years TAK celebrate bday kat rmah, am I sure nk join the programme?
Seriously, at first I was quite in dilemma. My parents ckp, it’s up to me la nk join or not. I ask around my frens whether I should join or not. Mostly suruh gi. I googled about the prog, to get a few ideas to help me to decide. I’ve read other people’s blog. Then, dpt idea. Dri ak ssah2 cri blog org, better ak call sndri senior ak yg dah gi. So, I called kak Elinar. (fyi, she joined the 2010 prog)
“Kak Elinar, dis is Hanie. R u free? Can a bother u for a while?”
“Sure dear. Wut is it?”
“Now I’m in dilemma. Can u help me to decide? I was chosen to go to the tun razak’s interview dis sat but I’m not sure whether I should go or not.”
“Waa, congrats. For me, I think u should really, really, really go…”
And the conversation went on and on.
“The best thing is you should really listen to your heart”
OK la. I questioned my heart, and my heart told me to grab it. At least gi for the interview, for the sake of experience. As wut Kak Elinar told me, among many interviews she went, Tun Razak’s and Petronas’s were the toughest. Tp klu ade rezeki dapat la join, klu takde takpe at least dah try. Not many pown yg dapat opportunity nk dtg for the interview, every skol 2 org je candidates.
SAT, Memorial Tun Abdul Razak- Hanie was wearing aYELLOWbju kurung. Her session was supposed to be at 10.30-11.00am but she went there early, really2 early. She arrived approximately at 9.20am. First, at least she could calm herself when she had arrived there. Second, because she wants to give a comforting hug to her cousin, Husnul Muhayya before she went for her interview which was supposed to be earlier than Hanie’s. Wut happened next was the organizer called for the bdak2 Selangor. So, we went upstairs. It was 9.45am and supposedly the candidates for the 1st session (9.30-10.00am) should be in the ‘ROOM’. Every session, 3 candidates. For the first batch, tak ckup org. They asked, “Who has their parents waiting downstairs?” “Hanie’s” “OK. U can go in to the interviewing room, NOW”
Mak datok. Ak antara org 1st yg kne interview. Session ak supposedly 1jam lg kot. Terkjot, mmg terkjot. Tp nk bwat mcm mne? Sooner or later mmg akn msok pown. So, msok je la. It was me, a Chinese gurl from Assunta; Victoria and a Malay girl from Mahamadiah Kajang; Syazwani. Both of them were English debaters, ak sorg je yg self-debating. Act wut they asked was all the same question. Dah jd mcm soalan bocor pown ade.hahhaha.seperti biase they will asked u to tell about urself, wuts ur weakness, wut had u learnt from the activities u joined in skol, wut kind of leader u r, wut can u offer for the prog, etc. They would ask to see ur cert, bg je la. Pstu they will pick a cert, and ask u wut did u gained; based on ur cert th. Mase current issue mmg our group kne kaw2 la. They will asked questions from ur answer given. Syazwani brought up the issue of Interlok. Pehh! Mmg best gle la kne soal blek. Tiga2 kne soal about the unity and mutual understanding stuffs. Tetibe, “Hanie, wut do u know about 1Malaysia?” Wooo, I thought they will never asked. Nseb pkul 7.43pg td bru je search psl 1Malaysia.hahah.ak pown membantai la.
Btw, yg mcm laen drpd yg laen was dat u really have to listen attentively to wut the other candidates said, coz pastu dye tanye, “wut do u think of Hanie’s experience” or something. Before we wrap up, one of the interviewees (there were 2 persons who interviewed us) said to us, “If u r chosen, I would really encourage u to go. But if not, it’s not the end of the world.” Among my frens who came to the interview were:
Husnul Muhayya (cousin@Headgurl Sri Aman), Aina Farzana (Pendebat Bahasa Melayu@Headgurl SSP), Izleanna (Headgurl SESERI), Danial Iman (Raluca@tuan rumah BBQ@ English debater SDAR), Zharif (Swift@English Debater@Batch Leader SMSS), Haziq Asyraf (Raluca@Public Speaker SDAR), Zuheir (Pendebat Bahasa Melayu@Headboy SSAS)
<Mereka sume HEBAT2 belaka>
Kemudian, saya telah mengisi borang UPU. Saya hanya membuat 5 pilihan. Berikut adalah mengikut turutan: UIAM-asasi perubatan, UiTM-asasi sains, UNIMAS-asassi sains hayat (Sarawak best kot, oversea), UIAM-asasi sains kesihatan dan UM-asasi sains hayat.
Then, gi BBQ kat rumah Danial Iman. Klaka gle. Salah masuk kwsn perumahan, nape la developer th letak nme nak dkat same.adoyy.hahaha.kemudian adelah dua org yg berbju KUNING terpakse membonceng motorsikal untuk menjemput VIP sorang yg dh sesat nh.HAHAHA.terima kaseh~
Oleh sebab Nadzira tidak dapat menghadiri majlis ini, hanya saya sahaja tetamu tunggal dari SSP. Selebihnya ialah bdak2 SDAR dan SMSS. Sememangnya, bdak2 SDAR amat sombong yea.hahahha.hanya segelintir yg OK. Hal ini demikian (kemungkinan) kerana mereka berasa tergugat dengan kehadiran saya yang lebih terer untuk masak BBQ. Saya juga telah banyak mengarahkan mereka untuk menterbalikkan ayam2 , sotong2 dan lamb serta menyuruh mereka untuk menyapukan butter pada burger. By the end of the day, saya telah menggondol anugerah MASTER CHEF, yeay!!! :D HAHAHAHA. Terima kaseh juga kpd Assistants saya yang telah byk membantu spt Sein, Afiq, Danial Iman, Hilman, Aiman Sulhi, Shahmi dan lain2 yang saya tidak kenali.
Because I was enjoying myself cooking the BBQ with the heat and chocking smoke, I just ate a cheese tart yg Sein amek kn (trimas Sein!). I was just happy dat I had helped to serve the others. Thanx again DANIAL IMAN for inviting me. Terima kasih daun keladi, next tyme boleh ajak I lg, and dat tyme I’m going to eat, u guys plak jd master chef, OK???
2006. Form 1 Usaha. Pendidikan Sivik dan Kewarganegaraan project. Group: 'Confirm A'.
We got A! (bottom-right in red ink)
2. PANDU CERMAT, SAMPAI SELAMAT
2006. Kelas Seni, Mid Year Exam, poster kesedaran. HAHAHAA. Bila jumpe balik dis piece of art (cheh~) tergelak gle! Timing dye sesuai gle, tyme tgh blaja driving.
Mesej in the poster:
bile ko drive 220 km/j, nanti accident, naek ambulans, masuk hospital, pastu mati naek van mayat. bile ko drive 80 km/j plak, kononnye slow la tp cg driving ckp kne drive ikut had laju kat papan tanda, tak bleh sesuke hati je, pastu nanti sampai kt kampung yang ade padi warna merah (pelik gle, but dats art) and rumah kayu yang kurang sifat nye. Home Sweet Home~
Markah 38/40
3. Topik: PENEGASAN
2007. Form 2 Pintar. Kelas Seni task. Flower among Grasses.
4. MEMBERS of HYACINTH 2
2008. Form 2 Hyacinth 2, TOPFLOOR. Creatively made by Ms. AINA INSYIRAH.
Describing her dorm mates.
BAY 1: Farah Azlin (makan, makan, makan :P), Izzati Amer Hamzah (SCUD! Basketball), Hanie Farhana (MP4, taller than Izzati-tipu gle!), Natasha Fairuz (I luv Hikaru), Anis Zafirah (bOOks!), Shahirah Sulaiman (my hair is very pretty~),
Atikah Sulaiman (i need to SLEEP>early)
BAY 2: Hani Amirah (with her brown bag-very stylish), Fatin Fazira (excellent in MATHS?), Aina Insyirah (always with her devices which she can hear music),
2008. Kelas Seni, Final Exam, rekaan setem. Dis is one of my fav, siap search kat internet nak cri name saintifik taw.heheh.Zebra Lace Anglefish a.k.a Pterophyllum Altum.
Markah 48/50.
6. TRUTH OR DARE
2009. Kelas Seni, Mid Year, cover buku cerita. Haa, asek bwat yang goody-goody je nk gak bwat yang gothic skit.hahaha.seram wohh! Act dlu my choice of story books pown is the seram2 one maa esp Goosebumps.
tgk la the writer of the book H. F. Stine, copy cat-ing R. L. Stine.
Markah 49/50-pehh! Almost perfect :P
Dis piece was found when kemas2 the school stuff. It was from my anak buah (ZETHY SUHAIDA) tyme jadi dormleader Bluebell 1 (2009) after dapat jadi Top 5.
Paling klaka yang dye tules <you once said "AKU tak nak lagi jadi Dorm Leader korang. AKU nak pindah dorm. Sekarang, pilih Dorm Leader baru korang." I was thankful it never happened>
HAHAHAH. Yup, act itu ialah salah stu cara aku 'ugut' korang sruh jage dorm leklok :P But in the end aku dapat jadi Best Dorm Leader 2009, (dapat fountain pen Parker)
Thanx to korang gak. I learnt a lot. Thanx a bunch. :DDD
She took her steps.
Her first step; I shut my eyes, unable to see what's gonna happen.
More steps; I was surprised. She went in without any help from us. She's in there, safely.
I felt like I'm really a useless kakak. Bongok gle. Rase macam seorang kakak yang tak bergune gle. Tak penah nak tengok adik pegi sekolah. First time td. Ikut Mama hantar Dina gi skola setelah dye sekian lame dye skola kat situ. Bgus nye dye. She can go to her class by her own, I didn't know that. I never felt this way before, it's a feeling of disappointment, sad, crushed, awe, proud; all jumbled up.
Lepaskan perlahan-lahan. Jangan paksa. Lembut je.
OK. Mula2 memang panic. 1st and 2nd round: mati 3 kali. After that, I can feel the rhythm and the beat. Alah, kacang je. Stakat maen clutch and brake. Boleh borak2 lagi ngan cikgu tyme tgh driving. I never felt this way before, it’s a feeling of joy, ecstasy, confidence, assured, glory; all jumbled up.
PAM! WAAAAA!
(Door closed, Child wailed)
Laa, slalu boleh je bukak pintu sendiri. So, I let him do it by himself la. Nnt ak bwatkan kang nanges. Excuse me. I’m really2 sure that his hands were on the door’s handle and not on the edge of the door. Ak nh takde la bodoh sangat, sampai xreti jage adik. Pastu terkepit. I was not my fault. Spe sruh bdak th tak tunggu Mama yg bukak kn pintu. I never felt like this before, it’s a feeling of enraged, mad, innocence, ignorant; all jumbled up.
FEELINGS. It’s too abstract to tell them using words. We can disguise them with a smile or a what-ever-face. Sometimes, they are unveil when they are too majestic. The thing is, I NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE.
So, I went there. OK la. It was quite helpful. Mostly they were the private colleges and universities. There was also a career talk which was the highlight of the event. I went to the Medicine & Dentistry talk. Ntah la. Actually, ak nak je untuk TAK amek Medic. Try gak engineering ke? As I do love Physics. Tp TAK boleh. My heart insists me to do Medic. I don’t know la, it’s just me. Yes, I’m absolutely aware yg Medic is SO tough and challenging. So, you must have the ability to motivate yourselves. But, what’s the fun if life is so easy kn?
You might say bile amek medic you don’t have the time for yourself. As the speakers said, “It’s all about how you manage your time. You say you don’t have time to exercise, but DO have time to watch movie. Even the busiest CEOs DO have time for golf.”
Being a doctor is NOT about monetary reason. Rezeki th ade kat mane2 je. Semua th ujian Allah. Bleh je dye nak test kte dgn kekayaan or kemiskinan. Some of the Medic students have this pop-up in the mind frequently “Knape la ak amek Medic, menyesal gle!”. This is simply because you’re not enjoying it. Ikhlas la. If you visit org yg sakit pown dah BANYAK gle pahala. Nh you nak help to treat people, lg la BANYAK GLE, GLE! If it gets TOO hard, sume th ujian Allah yg nak tgk hamba-Nya sabar. You should be overwhelmed yg Allah remembers you and give you the tests. Semua ade hikmah nye. Allah wants to give you more than you can ever imagine.
For me la kn, I want to do Medic sebab I like to help, meet new people and the SATISFACTORY. The feeling is indescribable. It’s a very noble job. If kite ajar kawan kite, and dye pham the one we thought, and how they really appreciated it, they make us feel really2 appreciated and satisfied. If you bleh tolong selamatkn nyawa org and give them the chance to enjoy the life, the feeling is beyond our expectation. What if kite tak dapat tolong selamatkan? We’ve done our best tp dah ajal. Allah la yg menentukan hidup dan mati.
DEATH. Something yg it’s quite hard to be handle by the docs, tp the family members lg la feel the numb pain. That’s something yg I really need to learn, somehow utk jadi HEARTLESS. Seems too evil huh? Ak nh dah la cepat leleh bile sedih, adoyy. (tp ade tahap2 kesedihan) Kne jadi keras skit. A doc is also an actor/actress somehow. You hide your emotion. You can’t show your tears to your patients when you’re the one who they look up to and you’re the only person who can encourage them to be strong. So, after th bru lah bleh meraung (ToT)
In a nutshell, insyaAllah in a few years you can call me Dr. Hanie Farhana. HAHAHA. Alhamdulillah I can decide my mind to do Medic. Still, I’m continuously praying to ALLAH the Almighty to really2 show me the right path for me. Maybe at this instant, I can post that I’m gle2 in love ngan Medic tp what happen next hanye Allah yg tahu, Maha Mengetahui. Prob skrang is nk specialized in ape eh? Akn kupikirkan nanti.
Btw, met a few frens kat sane. Klaka coz Si Raluca pki Purple, Si Dash pki Hijau coincidentally. HAHAHA. Pastu, time kt Suria nak blek, terserempak ngan ZUHEIR, “Weh Zuheir! Ko dah gemuk! HAHAHAHAHA” “Alah, ko pown dah gemook!” Kuang asam nye bdak! Tp kn, you look better when you gain weight, serious TAK TIPU :D
This stage was held at Odyssey Hall, Mercu UEM which is very near to the KL Sentral. I went there by the LRT with Nabilah. Then, went we got to KL Sentral, kterg lepak2 kat Burger King with Kelly and Nadz. Yup, I had conquered the KL Sentral!!! First tyme kot. Ak ngan Nabilah dah siap tawaf satu KL Sentral th dah. Then, jalan kaki to the UEM building with some directions by Kelly. (THANX BEB!)
Up, up and away to the 7th floor. There was actually a small reunion between the Hermanas. (although tak sampai 1/10 of the batch pown) Yesterday supposedly ade kat Sunway but really2 sori I couldn’t make it. So, berkumpul la kterang 13 candidates from SSP (supposedly 14 org tp Ms. Hani Amirah couldn’t make it). They are:
1.Ms. Hanie Farhana Hamdi
2.Ms. Siti Nabilah Mohd Razib
3.Ms. Nadzira Mohd Azizan
4.Ms. Nur Izzati Ahmad
5.Ms. Hazwani Zaim
6.Ms. Nurrul Syairah Abd Shukor
7.Ms. Nur Fatehah Mohd Sukri
8.Ms. Nurul Fadhilah Syahirah
9.Ms. Azmin Nur Ahmad Zamri
10.Ms. Nurulauni ‘Aqilah Saniman
11.Ms. Aina Farzana Mohd Azmi
12.Ms. Nur Izzati Amer Hamzah
13.Ms. Nur Amalina Rashdi
THE TEST: It was conducted in a hall. TECHNOLOGY is prohibited (yea Nabilah?). Maksudnye even calculators pown tak bleh. Semua pakai minda. SPEED and ACCURACY has to be balanced. Sume ade 5 sets. Sume org kne start same2 and habes same2.
A.Abstract Logical Reasoning; somehow it’s like Maths la, psal sets, Venn Diagrams, you have to know the connections and relations among the subjects
B.Understanding Logical Reasoning; nh pown macam Maths gak, topic Mathematical Reasoning, all the Ifs and THENs, mmg kne btol2 pham the statements given
C.Spatial Reasoning; it’s all about the shapes, more less like the puzzle cari the hidden object, this set in about 9 mins je, then TING! TING! Time’s up, rupe2nye ade soklan lagi kat blakng more than 10 questions lg, I didn’t noticed, so tak jawab laa :[
D.Social Context; this test cool gak la coz you will be a director, you have to arrange the comic pics into a complete story, one story ade 4 pics, tips: just let it be funny but logic
E.Numerical Reasoning; breaking the codes, you have to know the patterns, just complete the numbers’ sequence
It was supposed to make you feel stress. The thing is just relax and think fast and logic. Klu tak taw, skip je. Proceed to the next questions. Tapi, td before every sets dye akan terangkan how to tackle the questions and let you answer a few question examples. So, takde la cuak sangat.
After dah completed all the 5 sets, a Q&A session was held. A statement was given: The Khazanah will NOT taja for Medic, Pharmacy nor Dentistry, and it’s FINAL! Then, Nadz asked; knowing that I want to pursue Medic, “Hanie, how do you feel?” Hanie answered, “Nadz, ak dtg nh pown nk gi reunion ngan kawan2 ak. Hahahah”. Frankly speaking, I tak target pown dapat Khazanah’s, just trying my luck tyme hantar borang and Alhamdulillah I was selected to the first stage selection. But I don’t think I will proceed to the next stage coz tak jawab habes the 3rd set of tests th. You have to qualify the tertiary standards bru to the 2nd stage.
But, seriously the tests was FUN; tak tipu. Best kot jawab, it’s very challenging and mind-blowing. HAHAHAHA. Mcm jawab Addmaths la tp lagi best :D After test, turun bawah and met Farahin, “Hanie, ko dah membesar!” Haih bdak nh, takde bende laen ke dye nak cakap kat ak. Yea2, ak taw. Name pown duduk kat rumah berminggu-minggu. Ak nh klu blek overnight pown pipi bertambah tembam, inikan pula menetap semula di rumah. Takpe2, kat rumah ak nh dah ade mesin crosstrainer yang bakal ak kerjakan. Siap laa lemak sekalian, akan kumusnahkan!!!
P.S. Dah dapat dah idea utk azam tahun baru 2011 nh (it’s never too late kn?):
Membanteras lemak2 dan (this comes the hard part ) meMAINTAINkan berat badan yang ideal!!! Hope this will come true :D
