Seriously?!

السلام عليكم

Hmm, entah la? Serious ke? Seriously? Boleh ke? GILAA LAAA +.+

Itu antara ungkapan yang sering aku ujarkan akhir-akhir ini.

Aku sering mempersoalkan sesuatu.

Aku agak kecewa jugak dengan diri aku. *Mengeluh*

Aku mula perasan tabiat pelik  aku ini masa latihan Karate. Ohh, just nak bagi tahu. Aku dah convert. Nauzbillah, bukan convert agama tapi convert ajaran Karate. Dulu aku dah sampai green belt (second level) Goshin tapi dekat UIA hanya ada Shito-ryu. By joining Shito-ryu, I need to restart from the first belt, white. Yeah, I don't mind much. I left Karate so long that I think that I deserve to start from scratch.

Being a newcomer, Sensei (Master/Instructor) demand us to go through a set of training. He called it 'Body Conditioning'. We did all this routine to stretch our muscles, giving them a wake up call from their deep slumber, I supposed.

Sebelum melakukan rutin-rutin tersebut, Sensei akan melakukan demonstrasi bagaimana untuk melakukannya. Then, I would be, "Seriously? Boleh ke kita buat macam tu? Susah kot!". Orang di sekeliling aku, "Haaaaaah?!" je.

Tapi takda la nak complaint depan Sensei, hang gila ka?

So, we just shut our mouth and proceed with the routine. A confession here, I did mengelat a bit during the practice. You know, like finishing a bit early before I came to my finishing lines. This happened because I was so tired mannn! But then, everyone is tired too right? Haaiihh, selfish -.-'

Another day of practice appear. This time we got to practice some new routines with the Senpai (Seniors). It is clear that they are very familiar with it. They breezed through it so easily. As for us, it was like having to pass through the violent windstorm. Specificly, when Sensei asked us to do a clapping push-up.

It was just a normal push-ups. The only difference is when lowered your body and then raise back your body you have to clap your hand and then land back your hand on the floor. I barely can do a complete clapping push-ups. And as usual, before we start, I'll be blurting out the "Seriously? Serious ke?". 

The odd thing was the next day, when I was in my room with Fizah, fooling around and I tried to do the clapping push-ups. Guess what? I DID IT! BOLEH BUAAATTTT!!! I was shocked! I never thought I can do it! But I did! Like waaahhhhhhh XD 

I try reflecting myself. Why, oh why I can't do the clapping push-ups on the other night as I did just now?

One thing is for sure, I wasn't complaining or questioning myself before doing it. I just try it and did it!

Nampak permainannya di situ? It's all mind set.

I also noticed that recently I was having some troubles with my confidence, it was getting thinner. I think I know root of it but just let me try to solve it alone. I've never thought that that episode had vaporize my confidence so easily -.-'

Anyone got pills to boost up my confidence? Kalau ada pun bukan aku nak telan. You might know how much I hate pills.hahahhaha

Talking about medication, I was getting sick easier lately. Last week I had a fever. I think it was due to the demam urat when you strain your muscle too much. Manja gila badan aku ni, sikit je dh demam. So, grab a mug of water and Panadol Soluble. Aini suruh rehat je, "Tak payah la gi practice Karate". Being the stubborn me, I just ignore her advice and march out to the practice, at least I got to sweat. And the fever was gone, yeaayy! :D

Nevertheless, I still got another fever this week, right now. Trying to ignore the heavy head and flu. It's worse than last week's. I might  blame it to the wayward weather, or I might blame it to the poor antibody. Looking at the bright side, it's a way to delete my sins, insyaAllah :)

"I hated every minute of my training,
 but I said,
 "Don't quit.
 Suffer now
 and live the rest of your life
 as a champion"
-Muhammad Ali
Wassalam :)